I became a forgotten sibling
I lost my brother, my beautiful big brother, in 2011. I struggled hard, and so…
I lost my brother, my beautiful big brother, in 2011. I struggled hard, and so…
My mum had been in and out of my life since I was a child.
‘For a long time after she died all I could think about was her death…
‘It’s been six years now, and I mark the anniversary of her death by always…
‘If you’d have told me weeks before that this would happen, I would have been…
‘Three years ago, the day after my birthday, a close friend took his life. At…
‘As I left my first support group meeting for people bereaved by suicide I felt…
‘After my son died I found it really difficult – I felt I had failed…
‘I needed people to say the same things they might have said if she had…
‘Without the kindness and prayers of our church, I don’t know how my family would…
‘I have been first on the scene after a number of suicides and they have…
‘I felt I had to stay strong to support the rest of my family, especially…
‘It was so hard to tell them that their dad had killed himself. I tried…
‘As his mum, I felt responsible for his death; that I should have seen his…
‘I’ll never understand – how could all that love we had not have been enough?…
‘I too felt suicidal. Then the pangs of guilt would smash through my head about…
‘I feel sometimes that people define my mum’s life by her death. She’s stigmatised by…
‘So I have made a pact with myself, which some days I can stick to,…
‘His death consumed every minute of every hour of every day and on the rare…
‘I spent a large amount of time trying to ‘solve’ why my son had decided…
In the chaos after the death, when I felt so alone, so desperate and so…
In the chaos after the death, when I felt so alone, so desperate and so…